that’s what i’ve been missing these past 3-4 years. diet (lack thereof) is why i only went from 140-160 from sophomore-senior year. i always made the excuse “i have a high metabolism” or w/e, i was simply not eating enough
for the past month i’ve been very consistent with being present in the gym 6x/week, putting in good effort: regular hypertrophy split, but with no real progression laid out.
need to reorient my goals, i want to (in order)…:
- put on some weight
- hit 225 bench already
- get my leg game up
- get back game up
with this in mind: diet. minimum of 3k cal/day. minimum 100g protein/day. so far so good, been averaging 3-4k cal/day for the past week, gained a pound a couple pounds. COUNT YOUR CALORIES!!!
training: wanna try running smolov jr. for bench using 205 as starting pr, aiming for 225 at the end of 3 week cycle. meanwhile, get in squats/deadlifts/pullups at least once a week just to keep my legs alive.
Day 1(smolov): 6 set smolov bench, 5 set pullups
Day 2(squat): back squat 5x5, front squat 3x8, curl
Day 3(smolov): 7 set smolov bench, 5 set pullups
Day 4(back): deadlift 5x5, row 3x8, curl
Day 5(smolov): 8 set smolov bench, 5 set pullups
Day 6(smolov): 10 set smolov bench
Day 7: rest
might be a bit much, but we’ll see how it goes
The ones that live for tomorrow, get fucked by the ones living for today. I only live for today. I’ll show you just how fucked up that can be.
felt a little moisture in my eye
weights will always be there for me, so long as i’m there for them. what i put in, i get out. regardless of how much i stray (smoking/drinking/girl/slovenliness/etc.), i can always turn to weights for comfort and catharsis. it teaches me discipline and determination, having to put in unconditional work everyday; and hopefully i can find a femme to be my weights, there for me to turn to and input unconditional love everyday.
what did i expect from blind investments and inflated hopes?
time to redirect my focus off her, and on to myself:
breeze smells so nostalgic
tom actually made me think today: we’re not going to be here forever, there’s going to be a day when we’re no longer here, unable to experience all that there is to experience. but rather than regretting/getting angry over what i haven’t done, i think there’s hope in having experienced so little; that means there’s even more out there waiting for me to do. just like teacher jay’s fish example: if you don’t catch any fish one day, you’re more likely to catch something the next.
4/29/14 12:24 am
- made a lot of drops after school $$$
- helped grandma with garden shiet
- moved boxes w/ myeong at kumon for $$$
- finished hw
nice going to ymca today, drive home was nice, nice nice nice.
to study or not to study.
senior year, would be nice to have a girl to just take naps and cuddles with. talking not required.
prom is meh, parents want me to go, i could care less. $$$
overall good mood last couple days.
things are falling into place, stress affects me less, prioritizing, acting upon priorities, etc. etc.
- starting to lift on the regular again, must get large for summer/college
- spring break soon
- footsies and friendly relations with female
- learning moderation
- organiz(ed/ing) life
- feeling full of vitality
- sleeping earlier, have energy during day
- school is a breeze
must do: scholarship research, change housing back to livi
ah, freshman year spring throwback. first started lifting at the ebymca.